Prepping for baby #2

No one explains the immense amount of anxiety another baby will bring. As we are preparing for baby #2, I can only hope that I have not only prepared Grady to be a big brother but also that I have not wasted any precious moments of it being just the 3 of us and Grady being the only child. It’s no surprise that this pregnancy came as a shock to both my husband and I. We knew we wanted to expand our family but we weren’t expecting it to happen as quickly as it did. I’ve spent nights crying, worrying about how Grady is going to handle being a big brother and worrying about our relationship and how it’s going to change. This pregnancy hasn’t been the easiest ride and although there are times I’m ready for it to all be over there’s other days when I just want to make time stop and to hold on to my baby boy for just a little longer. It’s no joke that when someone else says the hardest thing in life is watching your kids grow up in front of your eyes. I want Grady to thrive and discover the person he is and can be but it’s also heartbreaking knowing that his first steps, words, and smile are behind us.  When I discovered I was pregnant I knew there were things that were going to be difficult but I made it a point to always be there for Grady no matter how hard this pregnancy was going to be. I wasn’t going to tell him “no” because of the pregnancy or blame the pregnancy on the reason why I couldn’t play or interact with him. I can only hope that I have succeeded and made an impact on his heart. As we are drawing close to the finish line, I want to cherish every moment with my little boy even if it’s at 1am and he needs a little extra cuddles because Lord only knows it’s me that really needs the extra cuddles.