Mother's Day

Mother’s day is fast approaching. I can’t tell you how blessed and grateful I am to not only be a mommy to 1 amazing child but soon to be 2 amazing children. As I sit here thinking about what I want for Mother’s day, since Chad asks me nonstop for the past week I can’t help but think that Mother’s day is not only a celebration for all the mother’s out there but it is also a reminder for the women longing to be mothers as well. As a mother myself I feel guilty, I feel guilty for being able to conceive a child and carry a child to term. I feel guilty announcing our pregnancy when I only hope and pray that it is someone else announcing their pregnancy as well. I feel guilty posting anything on social media about my child knowing there are people that would kill to be in my shoes. I never want to come across as complaining when it comes to being a mother or being pregnant because I know how blessed I truly am. There are days and events that we get invited to but do not attend because I am pregnant and have a child and there will be people there that are going through infertility. I find myself hiding my pregnancy or wanting to post a pic of my child and decide not to. I do not know what it feels like to go through infertility or lose a baby but I do know what it feels like when the loved ones closest to you are going through it and I never want to come across as being insensitive to their situation. As the days get closer to Mother’s day I will not only think about all the deserving mothers out there, the single moms, working mom, stay at home moms, and grandmothers but I will also be praying for the other woman who long to be a mother as well.  

21 weeks